Thursday, May 2, 2013

The Insanity of Whack-a-Mole

Early in recovery I had a vision come to mind...  

The Lord speaks to me in visions.  Now don't get me wrong, I'm no Lehi.  I just mean that the Lord shows me pictures in my head and often presents a concept by way of analogy.  I absolutely love the analogies the Lord shows me because they instantly make sense; I instantly 'get it.'

Back to the vision:

I remember feeling like I was spread too thin.  I was busy trying to manage the multiple addictions that I struggle with: sexual, food, facebook, certain people... you name it.  As I sat there, anxiety ridden, and feeling completely hopeless, a picture entered my head.

I pictured myself in a dark, abandoned arcade.  In the middle of the arcade stood a single illuminated Whack-a-Mole machine.  The Lord told me that each 'mole' represented a different addictive behavior that I struggled with.   

I observed myself hovering over the machine, sweat dripping off my forehead, eyes wide and frantic as I focused on one mole (addiction) at a time.  I found that once I hit one mole (tempered one addiction), another would always pop up.  I didn't have enough arms to push all the moles down at once so as I was focusing on one, another would continually pop up.  It was a perpetual cycle of insanity.  

It was hopeless.  There was no end and I didn't know how to stop.  



I looked to the Lord for help.  He smiled and walked toward me, then past me, and then behind the machine.  What he did next completely surprised me....

He unplugged it.

In that very moment I realized I not only didn't have to deal with the insanity of trying to manage my multiple addictions one at a time alone, but I didn't have to do it AT ALL.

I realized when I focus on the Savior and ask Him for help that He leads and guides me; He in essence shuts off my insanity and leads me away from the perpetual cycle of whack-a-moling myself to death.  As I focus on Him I become more like Him and the closer I grow to Him the more free I become from the chains that have kept me bound for so long.

2 comments:

  1. Woah - this is awesome. When you were describing the game, and making each mole represent an addiction, i was like, 'that is totally how i feel right now!'

    I love how hopeful this is. I feel RELIEF just reading it. Knowing that the Lord can do all things... why not unplug it.

    Loved this. Thanks.

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Thank you for sharing a moment with me:-)

Ezekiel 34:11-12,16

"For thus saith the Lord God; Behold, I, even I, will both search my sheep, and seek them out. As a shepherd seeketh out his flock in the day that he is among his sheep that are scattered; so will I seek out my sheep, and will deliver them out of all places where they have been scattered in the cloudy and dark day. I will seek that which was lost, and bring again that which was driven away, and will bind up that which was broken, and will strengthen that which was sick"