Thursday, January 23, 2014


~ Hope ~

Hope is the thing with feathers
That perches in the soul
And sings the tune without the words 
And never stops - at all 

And sweetest, in the gale, is heard 
And sore must be the storm 
That could abash the little Bird
That kept so many warm

I've heard it in the chillest land
And on the strangest sea
Yet, never, in extremity
It asked a crumb of me

Emily Dickinson

Tuesday, January 14, 2014

A Call for Input: Do's and Dont's for Priesthood Leaders

Hey Folks!

I am currently working on putting together a PowerPoint presentation that I will be presenting early next month to over 100 people.  A good portion of those in attendance will be bishops and stake presidents.

I have been asked to take a few minutes and talk about ... "something."  (isn't it scary when they leave it up to you what to talk about? Yikes!)...  Anyway.  I have remained close to the Spirit and have felt prompted to speak rather directly to the bishops and stake presidents and share the experiences of so many women in recovery with their present and previous priesthood leaders; what has worked and what hasn't.

This information will be shared in a very positive light and all information will be kept in the strictest of confidence.

I will be pulling from the Dear Bishop letters so many of you have already written, so if you have already written one, much of your insight will already be included.

If you have not written a Dear Bishop letter, or if you have but really want to emphasize a point, please share your thoughts regarding your previous or current Priesthood leader on the following:

  • What has worked?
  • What hasn't worked?
  • Were you ever shamed or offended?  Why?
  • Did your Priesthood leader do anything that helped you feel especially safe and comfortable?  What?
  • Any additional thoughts?

Thank you!

Monday, January 13, 2014

Safeguarding our Serenity

I learned something tonight that I am anxious to blog about; to solidify in my own memory so I don't forget.

This concept of safeguarding our serenity rather than our sobriety, because it is the loss of our serenity that leads to the loss of our sobriety.

Think about it . . .


noun, plural se·ren·i·ties for 2.
the state or quality of being serenecalm, or tranquil; sereneness.

Serenity is the peace we find in the rest of our Savior.  Such peace is not found in sobriety, which is simply the regulation of our addictive behaviors.

Yes, sobriety is important and it is essential to find gratitude in it and for it.  But sobriety is simply abstinence from unhealthy coping mechanisms.

Sobriety on its own leaves a hole, and without serenity; the peace of our loving Savior, the Grace that He provides and the sustenance of His atonement - which fills that hole, we will fall.

Every single time.

Serenity is our safe place, our haven, our sanctuary and harbor.

It is our serenity that we need to protect with all fierceness we can muster.

Friday, January 10, 2014

Journal: My Crazy Busy Life!

I feel like I have been a total absentee blogger!  Life has just been so busy lately, and I wanted to quickly update everyone on things that are happening...


The good news?  I have seemed to pass the funk that I was in for a few weeks.  I am so grateful!  Sometimes I forget just how much I rely on keeping busy and focused to keep me out of the darkness. The fog seemed to dissipate pretty much at the very moment school started up for me.  I am taking two classes this semester: Astronomy and Abnormal Psychology.

When I first enrolled for the classes I was more excited about the Abnormal Psych class than the 3rd required science class.  Most know that I have a keen head for crazy stuff.  I love watching crime shows and learning about different disorders.  I love digging into the minds of those whose thoughts and behaviors deviate from social and cultural norms.

But it is also common knowledge that no matter the topic, the right teacher can make you love any topic... and that is precisely what happened with Astronomy.

I LOVE my professor.  She is so passionate, funny and easy to understand.  Who knew nebulas, galaxy clusters and constellations could be so interesting?

My Abnormal Psych professor, on the other hand, is nervous and dry, and her energy is difficult to connect with.  Not what I was expecting.

Granted, there have only been two class periods so I reserve the right to change my opinion before the semester's end!


The Dr. Hilton event is fast approaching and I am invested in it full force.  I'm both excited and crazy nervous.  We were finally able to raise the funds, so that is out of the way.  Now we are focusing primarily on advertising.  The venue seats 400 and we really want to fill every seat.

I am picking up banners on Monday and they will go up on campus and we will begin handing out hundreds of fliers.

I've emailed everyone I know, asking them to spread the word!


My book is now bringing me a bit of anxiety.  When I submitted my manuscript I was told that I would hear back from them anywhere from 4-6 months.  Well, I am currently at about the 4 month mark,  I keep checking my junk email folder to see if I've missed an email from them.



I was able to quit my job!  I gave notice yesterday.  What a huge miracle it is.  I am beyond excited to do housework, make dinner and wash clothes.  I've turned into my mother!  No but really, being home with my kids has been my greatest desire for many years now.  I don't know how long it will last, but I'm grateful for any tine I do get.


So that is a brief rundown of what has been consuming my time lately.  I do have a number of draft blog posts that I need to fill out and edit so don't think my silence is due to writers block.  I will always have content to write about.  The Lord just has me focusing on a much larger need right now.

Thank you all for your wonderful and faithful support!

Wednesday, January 8, 2014

UVU Chapter of FTND presents: Dr. Donald L. Hilton

Please join us at this amazing event!!  
Join via Facebook here.

This event is free and open to students and general public.

Ezekiel 34:11-12,16

"For thus saith the Lord God; Behold, I, even I, will both search my sheep, and seek them out. As a shepherd seeketh out his flock in the day that he is among his sheep that are scattered; so will I seek out my sheep, and will deliver them out of all places where they have been scattered in the cloudy and dark day. I will seek that which was lost, and bring again that which was driven away, and will bind up that which was broken, and will strengthen that which was sick"