Same Sex Attraction is Not 'Wrong'

I had an experience today that really offended me, and I'm struggling to release the resulting anger.

It happened in the second hour of my church block; Sunday School. We were discussing the beatitudes, as well as the new laws the Savior delivered to replace the law of Moses, when we came to the following verse:

Matthew 5:28:
But I say unto you, That whosever looketh on a woman to lust after her hath committed adultery with her already in his heart. 
Knowing that so many struggle with the concept of lust, and what it really means, I raised my hand andreferring to the text of the scripturestated (and I quote); "Being triggered or tempted by a woman is not a sin, and does not lust make. It is what we do with that trigger or temptation that can lead to lust."

At the end of my comment I heard a man (who I will henceforth refer to as 'The Man') on the other side of the room half whisper under his breath; "Wow Sister Agla, are you into women?"

And then came the laughter.

Even though it was only a handful of people, who were also within hearing distance of his comment, it was deafening to me.

I flushed a deep hot red as my countenance darkened.
I wanted to run.

My struggle.
My shame.
I thought I was over it.
I thought I'd let it all go.

But his one little comment, followed by the laughter of the crowd, struck incredibly deep.

I wasn't sure if my husband had heard, even though he was sitting right next to me, so as to not call attention to myself I reached inside my purse and quickly sent him a text asking such. He confirmed that he'd heard it and mouthed the words, "I'm sorry."

It felt good to be validated.

When the meeting ended, I rushed out to avoid facing The Man. He'd repeated "I was just kidding" a few times after his comment, in what I assume was an effort to minimize what he'd said, and I wasn't about to satiate his desire to get me to agree with, or even applaud that effort.

Obviously, I was in a very rough, sensitive and vulnerable place.

After church, my husband let me know that he felt he needed to talk to The Man, so he stopped him in the hall after church. He didn't get mad or blame, but simply desired to shed some light on my perspective. He said; "there is no way you could know this, but my wife works with many women who struggle with same sex attraction, so she is very sensitive to the topic." The Man responded positively at first, stating; "Oh I didn't know that. I didn't mean anything by it," but then quickly rationalized by saying; "but it is wrong."

My husband's efforts were valiant, and I thank him. Not only did he defend me, but he also kept my confidentiality, for I don't just work with people who struggle with same sex attraction, but I myself struggle with it as well. I wrote about it once before, here.

The fact is, same sex attraction is not wrong.
How we respond to it can lead to wrong doing, but the innate temptation is not wrong.

I am not wrong.
I am not wrong.
I, am not wrong.


  1. Thank you for your refreshing honesty and willingness to share, so that others can learn. You are an amazing woman!

  2. I don't know why my comment didn't savethe first time, but, if this is a duplicate, erase it. I just want to say that you are amazing for handling such a hurtful and horrible situation. I love you very much, my friend. And I look up to you and respect you for all that you are. I would not be where I am today, if it weren't for you. As for "the man," wtf mate? Is he 10?! Sheesh... what kind of stoooooopid comment?!?!?!? Is he like 13?!?! Wow... okay, now I'm being rude... I'll just stop talking...

  3. And btw, you are not wrong. Period. And God knows it. Boom.

  4. I love and admire you my friend. Thank you for your honesty, candor and compassion. God blessed the world the day he sent you.

  5. Thank you for your honesty. I am so sorry this happened to you and feel bad that there are people like that in the world. I admire you and your journey. I am reading your book right now and can relate to nearly everything you have been through. My recovery journey is just beginning and I look to your story of faith and courage as a daily reminder that this will all work out. Thank you for sharing!!

    1. Jodi - Thank you so much for your kind words! I'm so happy to hear you are finding hope and strength in my book. That makes it all worth it. Keep your chin up. You have many people rooting for you, on this side as well as the other. Please let me know if I can do anything to help.:-)

  6. We will always find ignorant people in our lives…thank you for sharing!


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