Thursday, February 14, 2013

Journal: Conquering and Vulnerability

I conquered something terrifying today!



I presented a group project today in class.  The Lord asked me to be vulnerable and I was.  My group was presenting on the personal power of influence and I was prompted to share my story.  To share how opening myself up and being vulnerable, authentic and honest can lead to some of the greatest influence.  It was very empowering to share my addiction and recovery in a setting I've never before explored.  I'm grateful that the Lord gave me the opportunity to stretch.

As cool as that was it's not exactly what I wanted to share here today.  I wanted to share some quotes from my new favorite person, Brene Brown.  She is a PhD Social Worker who researches shame and vulnerability.  How awesome is that!

She's so cool!:

“Vulnerability is the birthplace of innovation, creativity and change.” 

“Staying vulnerable is a risk we have to take if we want to experience connection.” 

“Vulnerability sounds like truth and feels like courage. Truth and courage aren't always comfortable, but they're never weakness.” 

“Courage starts with showing up and letting ourselves be seen.” 

“Owning our story can be hard but not nearly as difficult as spending our lives running from it. Embracing our vulnerabilities is risky but not nearly as dangerous as giving up on love and belonging and joy—the experiences that make us the most vulnerable. Only when we are brave enough to explore the darkness will we discover the infinite power of our light.” 

Let us all strive to... 
look within ourselves
Discover ourselves
Get courageous with ourselves
Be truthful with ourselves
Share ourselves

But as much as I want and need to share, there are things that I can't.  There are things going on in my personal life right now that are more difficult than I have ever encountered.  My trust in the Lord is steadfast though, and He is supporting me through it.  I love Him.  I have witnessed His hand in this trial and I know it will be for my good.  I'm grateful and secure in that knowledge.

BUT IT STILL SUCKS

8 comments:

  1. It does still suck but the Lord has never led you astray yet. It is evident with how vulnerable you have allowed yourself to be, how it has strengthened you and how you have grown, I'm sure! You give so many such power themselves. I pray when the time is right for me to be vulnerable that the Lord will guide me to what I need to do as well and that I will have as much strength as you. I love you.

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  2. "But it still sucks" haha - I feel that way too. You are great Sidreis!

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    1. Haha thanks! It's like.. I "know" all the good stuff.. but I "feel" like it just sucks haha

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  3. You never cease to amaze me with your awesomeness! I hope whatever it is is resolved quickly. I hope you got an A+!!

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    1. Funny you mention the grade... I prepared a worksheet for the class to do too, and my professor (who is a therapist) asked if she could get a copy to use with her clients:-) haha.. awesome!

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  4. Love you Sidreis:)Wow you are a Lioness! You go girl!!

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  5. It still sucks! Yes--vent it out!! It makes you authentic indeed! I really hope eveything gets worked out for your benefit, because I'm sure I'm not the only gal here who feels like you deserve the world for opening up and leading us to safety. I want to be like you, *at least the you I know from the blog :)

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Thank you for sharing a moment with me:-)

Ezekiel 34:11-12,16

"For thus saith the Lord God; Behold, I, even I, will both search my sheep, and seek them out. As a shepherd seeketh out his flock in the day that he is among his sheep that are scattered; so will I seek out my sheep, and will deliver them out of all places where they have been scattered in the cloudy and dark day. I will seek that which was lost, and bring again that which was driven away, and will bind up that which was broken, and will strengthen that which was sick"