Journal: Invitations, Whisperings and Drum Roll's
I had the opportunity to extend an invitation. The invitation is to others who might be struggling in the shadows of sexual addiction, and feel that hopelessness is swallowing them whole.
I remember writing the blurb, and pausing toward the end, trying to figure out how to conclude. And then it came, the invitation, it just poured out of me.
I have learned to not deny or disobey such promptings. I have little doubt that the article is meant for someone specific.
Is it you?
If so, please know that you are not alone.
You are loved, by God, by Jacy, and by me.
Reach. I'll listen.
I had a hard day today. I worked on final edits of Chapter 8 - Whisperings of the Adversary, and let me tell you: Satan HATES this chapter. He is throwing a huge tissy fit over it. I had so much mental noise while working on it that I could hardly hear myself think. I heard so many lies being whispered to me as I was editing past lies he has told me! It was kind of humorous actually.
But, I put the chapter away for a while, and just concentrated on listening to good music and reading uplifting material. Later, my awesome husband helped me look at the chapter again, and together we did a sweep edit, and as hard as it was to write (because I listed very specific lies Satan has told me) it was still amazing. Truth is amazing. Truth, even hard truth, even dark truth - is light. I think sometimes that gets skewed in our heads. We can't talk about things we have done because it's dark. Well in order for them to become un-dark we must bring them into the light, and to do that we need to talk about it!
So as you know, I recently filmed a commercial for a local recovery organization. Well, I found out today that they have purchased a 'conference package'... which means...
That the commercial I am in will air all throughout General Conference weekend. Awesome right!? So crazy!! I can't wait!
Dude!!! Amazing news about the commercial during conference weekend! Wow. What great work you are doing for the Lord!!! This is an amazing post. There's so much light and hope you are spreading. I can't wait to read the post on Jacy's blog. You amaze me. And you're constantly pushing through hard things including those dang lies Satan whispers. You are one strong woman and a bright example to me. Thank you for continually spreading your light. I can feel it and I know it reaches others as well.ReplyDelete
That is awesome! I will watch for that! And thank you for helping so many of us come out of the shame of addiction and find hope and healing by knowing that we are not alone! Love you!ReplyDelete
When you talked about your experience writing that chapter, I thought of what C.S. Lewis wrote about his experience writing The Screwtape Letters (which is about devils trying to tempt mankind):ReplyDelete
"[while it was] easy to twist one’s mind into the diabolical attitude, it was not fun, or not fun for long… The world into which I had to project myself while I spoke through Screwtape was all dust, grit, thirst, and itch. Every trace of beauty, freshness and geniality had to be excluded. It almost smothered me before I was done."
I'm glad you made it out of that dark chapter. :)
Also, in the past 24 hours, I've sent links to two of your posts to H. 90 things to do to help stay sober and your explanation of User Dreams. Very helpful!
I LOOOOVE that!! I can so relate to that! Thank you!Delete