Friday, April 19, 2013

Dear Bishop: You Eased My Fears

Dear Bishop, 

I made a choice that I was sure would withdraw the Holy Ghost permanently from my life. Despite taking accountability for what I had done, I remained angry and cynical. I wasn't sure I fit in the realm of the church anymore, or that restitution was going to be worth it. I knew a disciplinary council was inevitable, but you didn't seem to be in a rush. I'll always remember our meeting when you told me you recognized a need for me to have opportunities to feel the Spirit. I was encouraged to meet with you regularly and without shame. You always opened the scriptures during our visits inviting a rich, beautiful spirit to fill the room. I never wanted to leave your office. I left our visits refreshed and full of hope! I would pray for that spirit to remain with me; oh how I prayed!! I invited my visiting teachers and the missionaries to come over anytime and hoped they'd share a message just so I could keep feeling that spirit. Week by week you seemed to say exactly what was on my mind. It blew me away. I gained a testimony of Bishop's by knowing you. I know you were called of God, and that you aspired to truly receive inspiration on my behalf. I thank you, so much.

I felt like we were just getting started down a path of healing, when my husband got a new job and we were going to move. The level of anxiety I felt over changing Bishops and wards was overwhelming and I couldn't express that to anyone. Not even my closest friends understood why I cried uncontrollably when I spoke of moving. But you did. You eased my fears, spoke to my soon-to-be Bishop, and offered me a priesthood blessing that has sustained me. Bishop, although we didn't discover the root of my problem together, you taught me the importance of staying close to the Lord until I did. I appreciate you; more than you'll ever know.

A Beautiful Daughter of God

A contributed post in response to A Call For Input: Dear Bishop Letters.

1 comment:

  1. What a blessing to have a Bishop like this. Thanks for sharing your journey, ups and downs, with us. Love you.

    ReplyDelete

Thank you for sharing a moment with me:-)

Ezekiel 34:11-12,16

"For thus saith the Lord God; Behold, I, even I, will both search my sheep, and seek them out. As a shepherd seeketh out his flock in the day that he is among his sheep that are scattered; so will I seek out my sheep, and will deliver them out of all places where they have been scattered in the cloudy and dark day. I will seek that which was lost, and bring again that which was driven away, and will bind up that which was broken, and will strengthen that which was sick"