Journal: A Temporary Day
Do you ever have those days when you feel like a complete offense to the entire world.
Days when all you want to do is sit alone in your messy house and not give a flip about anything.
When you post something cool on your blog or Facebook - to which no one responds - leaving you feeling left out, lonely and unloved.
And then you feel stupid for feeling that way.
And then you feel stupid for feeling stupid for feeling that way.
Those days when everyone else seems to look, sound, smell, laugh and generally be better than you.
... and you wonder how anyone could ever find you interesting, or funny, or smart, or good.
Days where you wonder where your happiness went and what you did to offend it.
And you desperately want it back but feel entirely clueless as to how to find it again.
It is all illusion.
... a lie.
A beast of a storm, yes.
Days when all you want to do is sit alone in your messy house and not give a flip about anything.
When you post something cool on your blog or Facebook - to which no one responds - leaving you feeling left out, lonely and unloved.
And then you feel stupid for feeling that way.
And then you feel stupid for feeling stupid for feeling that way.
Those days when everyone else seems to look, sound, smell, laugh and generally be better than you.
... and you wonder how anyone could ever find you interesting, or funny, or smart, or good.
Days where you wonder where your happiness went and what you did to offend it.
And you desperately want it back but feel entirely clueless as to how to find it again.
This is my Today
The good news is I know none of it is real. It is all illusion.
... a lie.
A beast of a storm, yes.
But it is Temporary
Tomorrow is brand new.
And I will get there.
And I will get there safe.
Dude. It's like you're in my brain. I hope both our days get better. Love you lots.
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ReplyDeletetoday's one of those days where i just want to push a reset button somewhere and start all over.
i know there's happiness for me... somewhere... i know there is, but i can't feel it.
Ya, I hear ya. Those are the times where we just gotta bury are head in the sand and wait for the wind to stop blowing. Just hold on. Keep your chin up!
DeleteI do have those days. I think every human being does. :)
ReplyDeleteAnd from now on I will like anything you post. ;)
As I heard watching the 2006 IronMan competition, "Our best days and our worst days, all have sunsets."
Hah dude. No need to like everything on my FB... the issue was/is mine, not anyone elses. I LOVE that quote!
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