Dear Bishop: I Need You So That I Can Be Worthy
Dear Bishop,
I wish I didn't need to write this to you but I have to be honest about
the way you reacted to me reaching out to you.
I’m frustrated with you, Bishop.
I wish I wasn't but I need you to know.
I came to you to talk about my addiction. I wanted you to understand what I have been
through, what I am going through, and how I am feeling because this addiction
is hard. Its everywhere and I face it
daily whether I want to or not.
I wanted to help you to understand a little about women caught
in sexual addiction but mostly I wanted to know that I had a place of
protection, a safe haven, that I could go to and feel my Heavenly Father’s love
for me. To me, you are the symbol of
Heavenly Father’s love for me and yet you blew me off like you didn't want to deal
with me. That hurt. I am grateful, after years of hard work, that I currently have a good understanding of
how God feels about me because if I hadn't I would have felt like Heavenly
Father Himself was brushing me off.
I know you are new
but you left me feeling like I was the only person in the ward to have this
kind of problem. Maybe our ward is
extremely lucky and I am the only one dealing with this type of thing but I
have a strong feeling that’s not the case.
I want you to be able to help those who come to you in their time of
need. I want you to be able to help
me. Honestly, Bishop, I was extremely
scared to talk to you about this issue.
Its not something I talk about easily with most people and that’s after
years of sobriety and recovery under my belt.
You are most
likely the first person an addict will talk to about their problem and you
can’t just push them to a group then wash your hands of it. If that had been my first experience with a
bishop, I don’t think I would have ever returned to you. I don’t think I would have the recovery I
currently have. You are vital not only
to my recovery but anyone else who seeks you out. Please understand that your role as my bishop
is so important to me. Please understand
that this addiction can and will keep me out of the temple. This addiction can and will keep me out of
the Celestial Kingdom. Please, Bishop, I
need you so that I can be worthy. Please
just listen to my pleading. You are a
good man, Bishop. Please use that
goodness to help everyone you can.
Sincerely,
A Beautiful Daughter of God
A contributed post in response to A Call For Input: Dear Bishop Letters.
A contributed post in response to A Call For Input: Dear Bishop Letters.
A very good letter. I'm glad she had the guts to say it!
ReplyDeleteMe too. We have to remember that Bishops are human too... I'm glad she was honest because sometimes Bishops just don't know how to handle things. And we are too scared to ask. So it's good to let them know:-)
DeleteThank you for this letter. As a Bishop, it is vital that I understand the impact I have on others as they work through the process of repentance. Although I don't have any women presently working with me on overcoming sex addiction, I have many men that are. I am sure that I have women that are still wondering if they can come to me and trust me with this burden.
ReplyDeleteI have worked with three women who are working through the 12 step program with their husbands who are sex addicts. I feel I have their trust and work hard to keep it.