Thursday, March 14, 2013

Journal: Even If I Slipped



I'm having a hard time and I just need to put it somewhere.  I've had three user dreams in the last 5 days and I'm worn out.  I'd gone quite a long time without one, and really, having them every now and then doesn't really bother me anymore, but this is excessive.  I woke up from one of them and I was disappointed.  I was disappointed that I'd woken up.  I didn't want the dream to end.  That scared me.

I feel like I'm under attack.  It's funny that I say that though because really, I don't think there is any minute of any day that I'm NOT under attack.  That goes for all of us.  But I feel like when it's especially hard, like right now, it means I'm doing something right.

That fits.  It makes sense to me.  I've had a number of women reach out to me lately... which of course the adversary absolutely hates.  So it makes sense that he would attack me.  He possibly thinks that if he attacks me and gets me to fall that I would no longer be a source of hope for others.

Well I have something to say to you... Satan...

To you I say...
Even if I did slip... I wouldn't quit.
I'd get back up again.
I'd keep working.
And even if I slipped, I will never, ever stop testifying of the grace of God.
Even if you were to succeed in tripping me, I wouldn't give up.
You see, I know that slips do not define me.
So if I were to slip, it may seem like a victory to you, but it's not.
Because me getting up AFTER a slip is much more powerful than the slip itself.
And I will ALWAYS get back up.

So, to you Satan, Lucifer, Son of the morning, worm-tongue and bona-fide JERK...  I say...

I choose my God... and...

YOU. WILL. NOT. WIN.

7 comments:

  1. I feel like raising a banner and running around telling Satan off with you! ;) you are amazing, Sidreis! One special angel of our God

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  2. You are sooo amazing!!!! You have definitely helped me and he probably isn't very happy about that:)
    -Carly

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  3. YYEESSSSS!!! You are my hero. I love this post! Thank you for it. Thank you!

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  4. Thank you guys! It felt good writing it. I started off sort of whiney but by the end I felt my determination and perseverance return:-)

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  5. He knows...I have been struggling and struggling and feeling that my slips do define me. A little voice just said read your blog. Oh sister how I needed this. Thank you.

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Thank you for sharing a moment with me:-)

Ezekiel 34:11-12,16

"For thus saith the Lord God; Behold, I, even I, will both search my sheep, and seek them out. As a shepherd seeketh out his flock in the day that he is among his sheep that are scattered; so will I seek out my sheep, and will deliver them out of all places where they have been scattered in the cloudy and dark day. I will seek that which was lost, and bring again that which was driven away, and will bind up that which was broken, and will strengthen that which was sick"